ayy miss nem

& I AM TIRED. My mom & I just got into a huge argument. Again. Over the same fucking thing. SCHOOL. What do you want from me?!?!?!?!?! I’VE BEEN WORKING MY ASS OFF SINCE DAY 1. And not even a little, that you’re close to being PROUD of me. Why??? What’s your problem? My mom’s mad that I’m not on the 4 year plan since I’m on the 5. My mom’s mad because I’m not a Nursing major anymore. Yes, she still holds a heavy grudge about that. Not only did rejection shoot me right in the heart, but she shot me right in the heart too. No comfort or positive encouragement whatsoever. Not even a little. My mom’s mad that after I graduate, I’ll still be going to school. My mom’s mad that it’s gonna take my 6 years to accomplish TWO bachelor’s degrees. Yes, TWO. In how many years?? SIX! What’s wrong with that picture?? I’m being rushed to finish school… For what?? My mom’s bitching about paying for my college fees. Well you know what, I know it’s still a lot of money, but I have CalVet thanks to pops. Be grateful that we’ve saved so much money not having to pay for tuition. Others have to pay the full price. So quit the bitchin. And I don’t appreciate the fact that you act like IDGAF about school or you act like I don’t even go to school at all. You act like I’ve been in school for 10 years. I don’t want to hear that “be grateful for what you have speech” because obviously, it’s being directed towards the wrong person. Some parents struggle to get their children in a decent college cuz their child’s that lazy and you’re over here acting like you’re one of them. For once, SHUT THE FUCK UP, QUIT THE UNNECESSARY BITCHING, AND LET ME MAKE YOU FUCKING PROUD. You’re getting in the way of my finish line, so back the fuck up and let me breathe. Remember, I’m ONLY 21!!! I’m not trying to be so harsh on my parents especially my mom, but it’s so frustrating just hearing the negativity for 4 straight years. Never have I heard “I’m so proud of you.” Not even once. Don’t ridicule how I’m feeling or what I’m saying right now because until you’ve actually felt what I’m saying, then don’t say anything at all. I’m just hurt.

For those of you who have parents who support your decisions about school, care about how you feel in school, and love you no matter how you perform in school, give them a hug and thank them because some of us unfortunately have parents who are so caught up in THEIR dreams to realize ours. It hurts when they don’t give you an ounce of support because it’s not what THEY want.